Addiction...

I need sex. I want sex at all times and it has disrupted my life in the past, but I don't see myself as a sex addict.

Now to be honest, I may just be playing mind games with myself but what I have doesn't fit my definition of addiction. 

An addict has an appetite that cannot be satisfied and never will be.

I need, want, and have to have sex on an extremely regular basis but I have been monogamous for the last five years. I don't need to have sex with everyone that I see, as long as I get my fill with my partner. I do have self control.

I look at it like I am an alcoholic that only drinks one brand. If that brand is not available,  I will not drink anything else and will just wait. There can come a time when you cannot get that brand, you may select another. You still don't try every drink in the bar, you just select another brand. The second brand of liquor fills in anytime the first brand isn't available and may become your drink of choice if they stop making the first altogether.

I have convinced myself that if I really had a sexual addiction problem, I wouldn't be so selective and picky. I would be trying to sleep with everyone that I could and I am not. I choose quality over quantity and as long as my partner and I have our sexual needs met by each other, I don't need anyone else.

Intercourse has to be passionate and has to be beyond physical pleasure for my gratification. I use more than just my reproductive organs, I use my eyes, hands, mouth, and most importantly my mind. I need to connect with a partner on a level beyond physical climax.

Strangely enough, my sexual gratification revolves around me. However, one of the things that I find the most fulfilling to my ego and desires is the ability to pleasure others. I need to know that I can pleasure someone else in the way and level that they need to pleasure me. In not making sex all about me has in fact made it all about me.

 

I am not an addict, I just need sex.